I'm feeling like a total ****head. I try to take control of my life and the fact that my emotions are out of control on the meds they put me on and they act like I'm ungrateful. I can't do anything right. They keep suggesting I go to the hospital. I'm not suicidal yet. I'm just having a lot of ideation and severe depression. Write me an rx for abilify. It's not hard. But apparently it is. Apparently the hospital is their only solution since they can't do the right thing and admit that they were wrong. That they got my meds wrong. That they need to at least add something new and not leave me hopeless for any kind of a life or future.

Like I said, out of control. Everything feels catastrophic. Everything sets me off. I don't know what else to do but just go to sleep as long as possible.