Why am I so: useless, worthless, confused, forgetful, hopeless, lazy, alone?

You are not useless, worthless!! I can't speak to forgetful and alone. But you are NOT worthless nor are you useless!

Why am I so scared to: be around others, talk on the phone, drive my car, get a job, have fun, be happy, go shopping, talk to my friends and family?

I too ask myself this question often. I have been asked in therapy when the last time I had fun, in the true meaning of fun. I can't even answer that question. I seems like NEVER!

Why can't I: remember, figure things out, communicate, do something with my days, function?

Again, I too ask myself this question often. Part of depression is difficulty making decisions, cognitive memory and just functioning day in and day out.

I know this is depression talking but: why is it so hard to fight, why does it take all of my energy just to confront it, why does it want me so bad?

This is an excellent question and I wish I had the answer for all of us. I can only say that yes, it is hard to fight it and sometimes it does take all our energy just to get through a day. See my signature quotes below

Why do I even: wake up?

Because your life is important. It may not seem that way much of the time, but you ARE important to people in your life. They may not show it, but they are there and they do care. I know the feeling of, "I just want to go to sleep and never wake up again." I think many, if not all of us, can identify with this.

My therapist has a picture on the wall behind the chair he sits in. It is a picture of a forest with a few trees. The trees of heavy with fog all around. I can't tell you how many times I have said, "If only I could just step into that picture and disappear into the fog, permanently."

Sorry for this post, I do try to post more positive things but I am just so frustrated with my illness I just needed to get it out.

Never say you are sorry for anything you post in this forum!!

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