I wasn't even sure myself if I was ready for another relationship but when she asked me I couldn't really say no. She was freaking out before I even answered, thinking I was going to say no. So I went and said okay. I did like her a lot at the time though. I only liked her more till recently. I think I get so scared that something will mess up that I end up thinking of anything as a problem maybe. Because my past relationships didn't end too well so I get worried I guess.
I can pretty much tell her everything. She knows I don't like porn. She used to say she didn't like it either. She also recently told me she's not actually herself with anyone she talks to and tries to be someone she thinks they'd want her to be. Because she's scared they'll hate her and she'll be alone. I told her that's ridiculous and to just be herself. But yeah. It made me wonder if I actually know much about my girlfriend or not.

I really doubt it. I've been watching how she reacts about my brother. Because I guess he was depressed, and she wouldn't really talk to him or help him at all. She just got annoyed that he was depressed. Then he went to church and was apparently all happy again. So she'll probably just take me to church.

I'm eighteen. My girlfriend is actually like, fifteen so I doubt that helps at all.
I'd probably never date someone who did drugs either.. I am trying to wait and see if my actions change at all. But this morning I woke up and for some reason thought I was single and it felt really good... xP

But I'm glad you made the right choice for you, and I'll say happy 24th anniversary now for when it comes up!

Thank you for your reply!