Thanks manda! That's very sweet of you to offer!
"Turning into different people" seems to be different for every one, that's all I meant when I said I wasn't familiar. I didn't want to offer advice on something I have no knowledge of. It could confuse you even more.
Many DID'ers have amnesia when it comes to dissociating and have no idea who is out, what they're doing, nor do they remember it when they "wake up" let's say (for example-lol
) in the doctor's office with the doctor looking at you like wtf was that? Or you "come to" in the shower and have no idea what day it is, only to find out a week has gone by.
So, to sometimes know you do it and be aware of what you (and they) are doing at the same time, and then sometimes not, sounded like co-consciousness which was confusing for me. I'm sure others here can relate to it though, so maybe they'll weigh in with their experiences.
Usually co-consciousness is a very slow process and doesn't begin until a lot of work has been done in therapy or you started vigorous internal communications on your own. But after reading your story and the way you dissociate, I'm encouraged that maybe healing won't be a such long process for people who have co-consciousness. It's almost like you're in the "advanced class."
Anyone have any thoughts on that?
Many DID'ers also have major memory lapses in their lives. Like not remembering anything about where they lived growing up because the abuse was so severe. We were talking about this in another thread that even though people knew something was seriously wrong with their lives, even as young as third grade, some went until their late thirties and beyond before they were even aware they had DID. Only then did they begin to get to know their alters, some still don't, and T knows about them before you do, lol.
So that's all. I was intrigued by the level of co-consciuosness. I just didn't want to offer that up right away because I didn't want to mess things up for you until you work it all out with T.
Did any of that make sense?
