Thank you for your reply, Beads. I have just written a huge email to the press about a recent fire in which I was trapped in my flat at the top of the building smoked out etc (check out post in si forum), so I don't really know what to say at this moment in time, I'm sorry

I just want to say thanks for being here. You've all helped me a lot and I really appreciate it.

Miray, that did help, thank you. I may use that to my advantage someday. I am being stronger now with my ED and have pushed myself to eat at least one full meal a day for 11 ays so far and am finding it incredibly difficult because my body keeps trying to reject it, but I know I have to do this although I have had a few tearful moments but I'm getting better... I think... Hope...

Thank you for your insights, they're helping a lot and I am trying my damnedest to get through this, so will hopefully get there, just keep watching this space I guess...