I am sorry that things are so bad for you right now and that you are hurting so deeply. Depression is a hard place to be, and a hard place to get out of, but there are things you can do to try and feel better. I am glad that you see a therapist, and why would going back into the hospital be so bad? You would be safe, and it would give you the opportunity to do things other than sleep, watch TV, and be on the computer - perhaps allowing you to replace those habits with ones that would help you. At the hospital, your diet could be monitored at your request to help with your weight issue, you would probably be more mobile - at least walking the halls in the hospital would help you with not sitting around. I certainly understand the IBS as I have it, but evidently yours is much worse. I hope that you have tried Citrucil or FibreCon as they helped me greatly !

People who review Disability claims must have their head in the sand alot of the time. If a person is unable to work due to their health, then they are entitled to benefits. I am sorry you were denied, but I would persue it. They usually dont keep denying it - especially if a lawyer is involved.

I am sorry for your son, sounds like his Mother is a loose cannon, but you know - he IS your son. I wont continue on this part of your post - as I have very strong feelings about children and their rights, but I do hope that you will try to help yourself, so that you can get some child support headed his way.

This is a great site for support and welcome !