I'm so glad it's cooler here today. We had T-storms last night and there may be more today, yay. I love clouds and rain (making my signature even more ironic...i think it's time to change it). Must be my European ancestry that loves cold, precipitation, and gloom. Need some Shostakovitch for ambiance now.

Will probably try to read and play video games today, although this is my fave weather to hike, so who knows.

Still feeling fine today, but not totally trusting it. I emailed my former online therapist (was with him from Jan '07 - Aug '08) while in the midst of the crisis day (Friday) and he too thought I should go to the hospital to be safe and have them be able to get my meds sorted out in an environment where I could be carefully monitored, etc. I wrote him back today and said I was feeling much better so not to worry. He also thinks I need a new support team, but I'm pretty much done with drs and meds.

I hate that my moods are so unpredictable, but I swear they took my from insomnia and moderate depression to sleeping all the time, severe depression, paranoia, and wishing for death...not to mention violent rapid mood swings. Can't deal with that any more.

Thanks guys for being there for me in my time of need. I think I'm over the worst.