Tis Zen again!

I still haven't bothered sending my former friend an e-mail to explain to her why I don't wish to be friends with her anymore. I feel like I need a clean break from the past and clear my mind before I am ready to send her an honest e-mail.

So far, her dad hasn't e-mailed me or called me to tell me that he doesn't want to manage my finanices. I guess that is a positive sign?

On a brighter note, my new friend that is in Africa this summer will be returning home soon. Monday is a holiday where I live, so on Tuesday I plan to order her a floral arrangement for her birthday which is in September. I love sending people flowers! And gifts in general! Nothing makes me happier than to give someone a gift or donate to animal humane shelters.

I just don't know when I am going to be ready mentally to compose an e-mail to my former friend. Right now I am just enjoying not having to deal with her control issues and OCD behaviorisms. I know I shouldn't cast stones when I have my own mental health issues to deal with but it was so very hard for me to keep up the "act" that I enjoyed her company/friendship.