You don't deserve to feel like crap, and the reason I was asking about your anxiety, is because I suffer from anxiety. The meds have really made a difference in my life. If you don't mind me asking you, why would he un friend you, and then become friends with you again. Even if he has had bad relationships in the past doesn't give him the right to be mean towards you. You know if a guy is really into you, your anxiety isn't going to make him run for the hills. Personally I would be careful with getting to attached to this guy, and it is not because of you. It's because of him coming in and out. I would tell him that if the two of you meet and both of you end up having a relationship, that your not going to put up with running in and out like that. IMO that is just leaving you on a string, and you don't deserve that. You know a lot of men do go for just looks. Not all men are like that. They do have the ability to look beyond looks. (no, I'm not saying that anything is wrong with you, you seem nice to me) A real man will love you for who you are, and not try to change you. When they do love you, they do their very best not to make you feel insecure.