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Originally Posted by sunrise
Deli, I'm not sure I understand. Are you saying that you experienced physical abuse separately from childhood events? (You had physical abuse events as an adult?) Maybe I am not sure what CSA stands for. Sorry to spell it out, but is CSA=childhood sexual abuse? If so, I'm confused by separating physical from that. Why don't you think CSA is physical? You say your pdoc thinks CSA was bigger than physical, but CSA does include physical!!! Sorry, I'm very confused.... I'm not doubting what you say, just trying to understand.
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nothing to be sorry about (((sunny))). 'physical' for me would leave me hurt and bruised and... stuff for weeks later. csa didnt hurt physically because it was all very gentle and quiet - a secret. physical was big and screamy and the neighbours knew and not sure if you're gonna live through it.
csa... also... when it stopped happening physically... became more verbal and covert. being watched, being commented on, being told things to do. physical 'stuff' happened for a long time, but physical csa only happened for a few years.
****, i dont know why i'm even writing this. i am tired and will probably regret all of this in the morning. if anyone reads any of this, please dont mention it outside of this thread. because this thread will eventually sink off the first page and then i can pretend it never happenend and no one knows
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sunny - the rest of your post is so helpful, but i'm too tired to respond right now. same to you, impy and kiya and kureha
. i've tired myself out. i should goto bed. i'm meant to be studying but i'm thinking silly crap instead, so i should at least get some sleep so i can try the study thing tomorrow.
you guys seriously have no idea how grateful i am, though. i think the world of all of you.
