my h thinks i have demons.
He doesn't believe in therapy and hates my T and psyDr. He met with both of them at different times and remembered and told my psychiatrist things about my history- like when we were dating- i was always too afraid to go home and he'd end up talking to me in the car for hours until 2 or 3 in the morning. Even though he knows i have a trauma history- still he doesn't believe my parts are parts- everything is a spiritual issue and he is right spiritually and i am wrong. tears.

It's so painful to have family that isn't supportive. i would have never told him myself- he found out by accident when i was committed after an overdose.

H also resents having little ones out- i feel badly about it because he can never have a totally equal adult to adult relationship- (but neither can i) . it's a painfully hard mess to live, with a lot of anger and regrets. The thing to do to make it easier- going to therapy so i could someday learn to communicate with parts- h makes more difficult because his anger forces me to live in more separations and dissociate more.

it's a sad mess for both of us- he's always angry with me for doing and saying things that i can't help. i feel badly but there isn't anything that i can do to change.

kerria