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Aug 03, 2009, 09:05 PM
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Member Since: Jul 2009
Location: Valley of the Sun
Posts: 35
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Sometimes I don’t know where to turn. I have been treated for depression and other such things several times throughout my life. I have also had some bad docs that ‘diagnosed’ me with the disorder of the day, so my trust with them is not that strong. I know I need to go see someone, hopefully be correctly diagnosed, and get the appropriate treatment I need, but don’t know where to go.
Since all the other times I have been through this, I needed meds and therapy helped, I figured to find a psychiatrist to get the diagnosis and meds then a T for the talk time. Well, I looked up my insurance to find who they cover. The first 2 I called the numbers are disconnected, the next has a waiting list and won’t see anyone for at least 3 months. NOT going to help my quasi-crisis now.  Definitely not helping my depression and feelings of being worthless. The others are all tied to a hospital and don’t seem to take outside patients. 
I just cannot seem to get my brain to be quiet, make a decision on what to do now, or feel like there is hope. Everyone who knows me just sees the facade I portray and expect me to be the one who can do it all and with a smile on my face. Pretty scary that I actually feel the exact opposite. 
I guess I just needed to be able to let out these feelings of frustration so they don’t add to everything else that is going on.
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