I'm late, but wow, so powerful Catherine. I visit here a lot, rarely with the strength to post. I think my life was 100 times easier when I remained in denial. Now that I've had to confront (literally face to face with my abusers) my past, I'm just a wreck, a total freaking wreck. I have no understanding of the world around me.

I'm 30, and it's like everything I had up until now is gone and I don't know how to get it back because it shattered. My home, my career, my friendships... I'm just stalled feeling like I have to rebuild based on this new awareness.

I'm sick to my stomach with it tonight.

Thanks again for articulating what I don't have the words to express. Thanks to everyone else who shared on this board as well.