Ive had a drink tonight and just feel so hopless about my life I think it all began when I was young?I have a twin sister and I just felt that she had more attention then me(I know thats so wrong for me to be thinking like I am now)But too be honest I hate my sisiter for being better then me.I hate the fact that she has friends and I dont I hate the fact that she has someone to love her for what she is (Like when Am I going to get that)I hate the fact that she has a normal life and Im tottally screwed up...........I hate the fact that she is more confident then me..........every time I see her I hate her even more (I know thats horrid ) I just see her and wish It was me..........

Im such a waste of space.such a no hoper.......such a lost cause where she has evereything????

Im sorry this feels so not right.so painfull...............bear with me while I get my head around this..............