trigger warning for invalidation... again.

... they just don't think i have it. (my diagnosis is dissociative disorder though)

i'm in intensive outpatient, and switched today apparently - went out (for 3 hours) and "woke up" (as we say) in the middle of somewhere that was familiar to me. went back, told a nurse that asked what happened ("i don't really remember what happened") and we talked for a bit - i figured i could be more elaborate and test the waters, since i had come there to get help, to find out what i can do about it. for therapy. i said i was afraid of leading a double life.

and she said that was definitely not the cause because i had quite quickly "come to my senses".

3 hours?

i think i'm going back to saying nothing ever again.