I'm late, but wow, so powerful Catherine. I visit here a lot, rarely with the strength to post. I think my life was 100 times easier when I remained in denial. Now that I've had to confront (literally face to face with my abusers) my past, I'm just a wreck, a total freaking wreck. I have no understanding of the world around me.
ScaredSad,
Thank you for posting! There is strength in numbers, everyone here is experiencing about the same thing...we are just in different spots.
Your feelings are understandable! Confrontation of any kind is nerve wracking, doing so with an abuser is stunning in its' affect on us.
You would be a saint if you had any understanding of it right now...you are human, a good and wonderful one. Nothing about your situation is going to make much sense for awhile.
I'm 30, and it's like everything I had up until now is gone and I don't know how to get it back because it shattered. My home, my career, my friendships... I'm just stalled feeling like I have to rebuild based on this new awareness.
SacredSad, you are going to have to rebuild because so much was shattered. You don't have to do it all at one, though.
Can you be kind enough to yourself and not rush into this?
I'm sick to my stomach with it tonight.
Are you feeling any better?
Thanks again for articulating what I don't have the words to express. Thanks to everyone else who shared on this board as well
SacredSad, those words were heard by a hurting heart, ready to hear them.
I admire your steadfastness in finding the path that is right for you...right for you and not anyone else. Please take your time to find its' beginning.

P.S. All beat-up-ourselves bats are left for the FedEx man.
Daily pickup; hourly if needed.

In Peace, ScaredSad, in peace