Update:

Yesterday...as I'm sitting here, staring at my screen into the forums, attempting to respond to a thread......
Hub approaches me..all lovey & supportive (ewww. makes me cringe)..begins to tell me that I need to begin to find happiness....even if for myself....even if meaning I need to leave to obtain it.
I know that already. Intend TO obtain that BY leaving. Thing is, I know he doesn't mean that. He might talk big, but backing his words is next to impossible, (it never happens), and when the time does come for me to leave, I know he will be just the opposite.

I've even told him not to tell me things he doesn't mean, (as he's done this before), and it seems as soon as I begin to listen, it's as though he ambushes me...baits me to see if I am listening....and once he realizes I really am, THEN turns it back against me.
This push & shove maneauver of his has taught me to become numb to anything he says anymore.
I just wish, he really meant what he said.....TO find my OWN real happiness, regardless.

Well, come the last week of this month. I guess that's when I will really see just how meaningful his words really are, as I AM leaving then.
Sigh. I do not look forward to this leaving because of the possible friction, but excited to leave behind this travisty that has been going on far too long now.

Anyhow....just thought I'd update this...not sure why, (talking to self, I guess...lol).

Shangrala