Thank you Jerry Michele, Muffy and Bridgie. Those are encouraging words. I really do hope that it does work out and I find someone special and perfect... sigh.... if they exist.

I know I am young and maybe it's because of that I have this hope that at some point down the track he will tell me it was all a mistake and wants me back. Do you think I'm just being silly? Or just hoping for something that's unrealistic.

It's all coming to a head this week mainly because we have our annual college ball on friday and I was meant to be going with him. I'm now going with a friend but it's still painful. I don't want to go but I don't want to stay at home alone when everyone else is at the ball either.

I asked him whether he still wanted to try and work on things before we broke up but he said he didn't want to.

Anyway.... I don't know where i'm going with this. I just feel really heartbroken, in the actual literal sense of the word, my heart is aching.