So I seem to have temporarily overcome the Performance Anxiety/ED. However, this whole episode has really thrown me into a downward sprial...Ever since questioning my manhoood, or confidence in myself as a heterosexual male I've been very fearful of the thought 'well what if you're not into women', while this seems totally irrational to me because I know I am straight, have always and only ever thought about women. It definitely brings up memories of being made fun of or being called 'gay' or 'f*g'..I know this sounds terrible but I cant but help but to think of the most extreme stereotypes and wonder if I fall into them...Its terrible because I have had several gay friends, and felt completely comfortable around them....And now I am just paranoid....
Please any thoughts are welcome.
Thanks
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