Hey... you didn't have to edit out my name...on this post SE...I stand by what I said.. and you are more than just an inspiration to me... let me post a lil story.

A little over a year ago I was in a very bad place...in fact unknown to people I was actually about to take my own life. I'm not one for a lot of drama... so I wasn't going around telling people, "I'm gonna do it... I'm gonna kill myself...this is it." That's just not my style... I was just going to make an exit when I was done getting revenge on my now ex husband but then husband. For some reason on another board I was drawn to you SE.. it's not like me to put my business out there for people, not the private stuff anyway...the raw stuff that no one knows. In private messages and without even knowing if you were a man or a woman I began telling you my whole messed up life story from start to finish..in condensed form of course. It took a couple of days as I recall. I was in a state of shock the whole time and for the life of me then and even now, I don't know what compelled me..except the fact perhaps that soon it wouldn't matter anyway. The whole time I sent you the story you said little except to encourage me and let me know you were reading and were there. I cried a lot those days.
Those days...
Back when I was writing that to you I was a very angry person. I was visiting the very boards you are having trouble with now and flaming the very person who gives you the most grief for your beliefs fairly hard. See, I was off the medications because they had proven to be more detrimental than beneficial to me. They had lowered the quality of my life instead of raising it. I had tried every kind in every dosage and every combo...and still I had side effects and symptoms. Medications were not the answer for me... and I asked for help on the boards only to be met with, "Medicine is the only way". When I tried to explain that the medication was not something I could do and that I had to find something else I was told that I was in denial basically and to go back on medicine. Because I was in a deluded state about that site already...I was quite ill at the time, this only served to cause me to fall into a more serious state of delusion about the agenda of the site itself and my response was to become hostile towards the people who came against me. The very person who is coming at you now was a major player in that as you well know. The delusions about the sites agenda are not the issues you have... I want to mention this... so no one plays with my words...it's not even close.
With your help I was able to recover enough to set the anger issues aside...it didn't happen instantly...but it did happen as I regained my mental health. I still have a long way to go with regards to other things... I am a work in progress.
I have mended fences with Cannonier or at least on my end I have. I understand that he does what he does because he is walking in the light he has. He is only going on what he knows is tried and true in his opinion...it's unfortunate though that such a brilliant person like him can't open his mind and even investigate the ideas you present because he's missing so much that I know he could use to help so many which is the mission of his heart like it is yours. I take offense to his treatment of you... it's sad because I always thought him to be more mature than he's acted.

Also... I'll never forget my wish after reading the story The Skelton Woman... I said...
"I could use a tearful fisherman about now.."
so to conclude my story...I got my wish... my tearful fisherman is plowing up the field to plant the fall crops... he did save my life ...but so did you SE...
thanks..
from,
I AM