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From my first relationship when I was 18 I had issues trusting my girlfriend and it ruined that relationship. From then on it's been one failed relationship after the other and I remember nearly everyone of them I've had a hard time trusting.
Now I'm in my 30s and involved with a woman who seems to be head over heels for me. She drives down from her place to meet me every weekend, she's always complimenting me, she talks about our future etc.... But then there was a period where an ex-boyfriend of hers was trying to win her back and it made me so completely upset and worthless that it created so many problems between us. Well, we're getting through that and she's told me that she's spoken to him and told him to leave her alone but I just can't seem to stop worrying and wondering where she's at all the time and who she's with. I'm constantly trying to catch her in a lie, calling her to make sure she's home, I peek at her phone to see if there are calls that I don't recognize. I can't go on like this! This constant worrying is driving me mad!
I can definitely see a pattern here in my relationships and trust but the sad part is I keep thinking I might be accurate in my assumptions and there is validity in my fears. What can I do about this? Where do I start to trust and let go of this worrying & fear that haunts me?
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