Back to my wandering thoughts...
When I mentioned the GasFairy, a grouchy old man, I was envisioning "Walter," one of the characters created by Jeff Dunham, the ventriloquist.
I was read an article stating that he was now one of the top ten comics...
YouTube has many of his performances, from early ones to some of the current ones.
Don't ya wish I would come to the point?
Watching his performances over the years via YouTube, it struck me how far he had come; his act was polished and he was much more comfortable.
...started me thinking
How far have I come in say the last ten years? Am I more polished and comfortable?
Obviously, yes and no.
My issues--mercy, how I hate that word!-have changed in ways I didn't expect, so that fortune teller was wrong.
Yeah, I've come a long way.
Although getting blindsided sometimes, in general I am in a better state of mind.
Not all the time, but most of the time. My good days finally outnumber the sad ones.
Although I hate hitting those brick walls, somewhere in the mess that is me when they happen, there is a persistent little voice that tells me I will feel better.
One of the things that has only slightly improved is my rapid response to beating myself up when something goes wrong. Responding more slowly would be grand...
It's my belief that it's more common today to be in a rush to do many things, that taking your time makes you a slacker.
Does that make sense?
If it is promoted and approved, it's ok for little girls to wear makeup at age 3.5, little boys to be the super star of the little league (damn well better be says the daddy), daddy has to work 159 hours a week 'cause of big bills, mommas work in and outside the home, scorn the woman who stays at home with the kids, and oh boy, pity the man who elects to be the stay at home...
Went around my elbow to get to
This type of frenzied activity slides very easily into our minds when it comes to feeling better, jmo.
We will be criticized if we don't get over it soon enough, do it our way (non-compliant), etc..
add in your own experiences
perhaps we end up battling outside sources nearly as much as we struggle with internal things.
I don't want to buy into the You Be Too Slow
Quickly take the blame; Using The Bat
Realizing too late that I fell for old ways
It might be only 11 minutes before I assume I'm to blame for everything, but it's so much better than the former 11 seconds.
In Peace