I totally identify with how you feel...I'm going through the same thing. Sometimes you feel like everything will be okay, and the next minute you don't know how you can possibly go on.

The pain will and can go away. I understand your fear of meds too...I know they can help, but you need to talk to someone that will actually listen to you instead of just writing a prescription. (I'm still looking for that kind of doctor...)

You DO deserve support! Sometimes just talking to someone can make you feel a little better and give you a new perspective. Sometimes make you see something you wouldn't have on your own. It is hard to get through, but you'll be able to handle anything when you do. I've been through these feelings alot, and I know there's a light at the end of the tunnel, just sometimes there's a cloud covering it so you don't see right away.