Poor Tree.
You are working so hard! Please go back on Tuesday, and pamper yourself this weekend - do allow yourself a break from thinking about it 24/7 (and I need to do that as well at time!). It gets overwhelming to constantly be re-doing and re-living the past. Maybe it's better if you and T have a really light session on Tuesday and just focus on reconnecting, nothing else.
Hang in there, Tree!