Treehouse, As clichéd as it sounds I do feel your pain...those moments when we so want T to touch us, hug us, take it all away...but from my own experience of these moments, it has to be felt...if T were to intervene at a crucial moment, you'd just have the pain stuffed down again.....at times I've looked at T and said this is torture....the silence is unbearable....and T says is that what you think is happening? could it be that we are both sitting here together...I with you???....but that doesn't seem enought....I want to run and jump at her...scream take it away....but that would just be a moment...what about all the other times my past continues to haunt me....it lives within me as energy...it has to be almost exocisted...but the pain in going back...the pain in having to be the one to say what it is they are feeling/wanting/needing...it all feels so hopeless....so painful.....more painful than words can say....but I don't know how it works...but it does....and with time it gets easier...your able to feel the pain and speak the words and rant and protest and feel that you are being heard.....then one day a situation in normal life comes up and it somehow reminds you off how much you are being heard/"held" by T....you realise you have this new inner strenght that makes the daily living much more managable....I tell ya...therapy ain't for sissys LOL!!