I don't know That something I think I'm pretty good at doing with T, usually...and it was a big learning process to get to that point.

I guess this summer has been SO HARD - dredging up all of this CSA stuff and then working through all of these breaks/reconnections - it's just WORK, and it's painful, and I'm tired of it. I worked SO hard between sessions to try to figure out why I reacted so strongly to something he said on Tuesday, and I went in and was grown up and super honest and open and told him how I felt, and listened to his point of view and just TRIED to do my part to mend the rupture. And then I got all drifty, and worked really hard to pull myself out of that without his help. And we talked about how much I've had to fight to be able to talk about the CSA...and truly, he *knew* what I was asking for and it just felt like he could just give me what I needed, and he didn't. I just needed him to give me a break right then.