I'm BACK! And feeling so much better )))) My rituals of self injury have ended, thus far. I'm on new pills: Geodon (insurance doesnt want to cover because I haven't been on depakote or another antimanic besides lithium), the ever present Lithium <3, and a tranq, Klonopin. Inpatient was scary for me, but leaving the hospital on discharge day was just as scary. Something about the security of the ward had gotten under my skin. Thinker, I haven't read any of your posts yet, but I'll be looking out for you.
Phoenix, I actually went to Banner Thunderbird not St Lukes (I think Good Sam=Thunderbird now?) I don't know. I missed you guys tons. I added a bunch of natural meds to my mix up too: Selenium, Magnesium, Multivitamin, B12 sublingual, Omega 3, B Complex. YAY! Stupid Insurance Time to deal with them now. <3 Read all the new posts soon. Thanks for the wellwishes <3