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Not really. Well, maybe a little. Before we had ANY physical contact in therapy, there was a lot of talking about it. I think he wants to make sure we are on the same page, I feel safe, etc.

I guess what hurt is that he HAS offered in the past, but he didn't today, and I really just needed him to. I KNEW I could ask, and he would come over and sit with me, 100% for sure, and I am really good at asking for things usually, but I just couldn't. But I asked why he wouldn't sit with me unless I asked, so he knew what I was wanting. It almost felt like a power struggle, at a really stupid and unhelpful time. He said he was sorry in the message he left for me. And I know he is, and it will be fine. But still, it just hurt.

He does always offer a hug (I don't have to ask). Not today, because I stood up and walked out of the room before he could get up and offer. But usually.

So.