What you wrote makes perfect sense to me, but it's not whining babysteps - it feels like it because there isn't a quick way to work through what can be a very draining, exhausting & desperately lonely place to be. People who haven't been there themselves really have no idea & even if they knew how to relate, the thought processes at work frequently make us push ourselves away. Cyberspace eases that isolation reflex somewhat & here, in this place, there are people who definitely can relate - it's why they're here too and it's how we help each other. Remember, it was you who managed to crack a smile out of a highly depressed Marvin not so long ago!