Help me out a little here, did you have a near death experience in addition to the scare of nearly being hit by the truck? Or is that what you are referring to ( a close call with death?) I can see why this might upset you or anyone! But after the fact, things should settle down... unless there are issues with death and afterlife that concern you. Are you feeling "regret" over what you haven't done, or is something like that included in your feelings?

We don't discuss religion per-se here on this site, but it is an area you might find some peace through. (Most ppl who are in the active process of dying do become interested in such.)
http://www.jesus-is-savior.com/how_to_be_saved.html
http://www.dougbrittonbooks.com/anxi...tudyverses.asp

I think you can find other links from those. Also, google or yahoo "death and dying" and you can find loads of links.

I've had many "near misses" as they call them. And I'm not afraid of dying, but, like you, I sure would not like it to be a complete surprise!

TC