I hate feeling the way I do. I feel alone, scared, angry, depressed, and a lot of other things. Sometimes when I feel really bad I will cut myself and when that doesn't wwork I will try to kill myself. Lately, my feelings have been getting strong and I have to do everything just not to do something to myself. People say that you can control what you think and what you feel but I think that that is a bunch of ******** because if you could then I wouldn't do some of the things I do or have a lot of feelings that I have. Well, I have to go for now.