I am pretty positive I have schizophrenia so I am not going to bother listing my symptoms, but I have decided after some pretty major hallucinations to go see my doctor, which I am doing on tuesday. I am worried what wil happen to me though? What is the process? Psychiatrist? Brain scans? Blood Tests? Drugs? I am worried they will hospitalize me, I cant stand that thought it really scares me, and I am also anorexic(but at a healthy weight) and I am scared of what food they will put into me, I really dont want to be hospitalized, I am 17 and I know if they even suggest it my mum will be like 'where do I sign?!' . In what kind of situations would they hospitalise someone?

Help I am afraid. I dont know what to tell my family either - they are going to be so mad at me, because I have had a travelling holiday to europe arranged for me but I CANT go, I am way too screwed up right now, I need help, but they will be so angry with me for messing everything up AGAIN. And they will make fun of me also.