Part of it is that it is just so painful. I didn't really realize how attached I had gotten to my T. Now it feels like my heart is getting ripped apart. I'm in the process of writing her a letter that I think I'm going to give her the next time I see her. Before I used to hardly ever cry in session and now it seems like I do it the whole time. I feel like a part of my life will be missing. I don't think I've ever felt this strongly when I have finished with other Ts. Being that I have been able in the past to push down all my feelings, it appears that I had also been pushing down my feelings around the importance of T to me. I didn't want to feel dependent on it, but it was the one thing that I knew I could look forward to each week. Now I am sad that it is going away. What is the saying? You don't really know how important something is until it is taken away?