What are you afraid of happening if you don't pick a fight with T?
What would happen if you were able to reconnect with him?

I also had another thought -- what if you aren't trying to 'reconnect', but maybe this is the first time the little one is trying to connect with T. Yes, you've been seeing him for 21 months so part of you knows how compassionate he is...but is it possible that the part of you that needs to heal the CSA stuff has never been able to connect with T?

Which, of course brings me back to...what would make it easier for that part of you to connect?

((((treehouse))) (((little tree)))

Such amazing work...so brave to even be able to write about all of this here.

Many safe hugs for you!