SWA LUV!

Thank you for summoning the energy and courage to post. Go a slow as you need to: call someone, post, cry, clean, sleep, eat, read, work, anything. I'm not on PC 24/7, but this is an international site. I think you should be able to get folks who care almost any time here - and there are folks who care. Darkpurplesecrets and Babysteps are two of them, two of the best.

May all the stars shine on you, making the night as day.