I'm sorry you felt you had to crawl back to your T. I do understand apologizing for acting out in that sense.. but the T must understand your incorrect reasoning for it in the first place. My T has never let me quit or fire him. I have tried many times, calling and cancelling all standing appointments, not showing up etc. He continues to be there for me. I hope your T will also be there for you...if he is now?

I know how hard it is... not that I had trouble: God sent my T to me before I knew what I needed or was doing! Thanks to an oral surgeon for heaven's sake!

But in trying to discuss the disorder ... professionals just don't know! They just don't. I also can't expect lay people to know either. But trust me, I'm here, I've been there and still am most of the time...

I'm glad you have your horsework. And the trainer... ah to be able to disappear for a few hours...