I agree with all the other post, that you should leave. You could look on craigs list, or look in the news paper to start looking for a place to live. You can also find a different job threw craigs list. You know I have anxiety also. I really didn't want the meds, but it has really helped me. You can go to a regular MD to get the meds also. I have had to do that a lot. The meds will help you sleep better.