We all have many sides.. that's what makes us human. When we here suffer, it tends to draw out aspects of a particular "side" of us... sometimes not too pretty, sometimes rash, but sometimes it's also a good thing. We are all human. It makes us sad when we see another suffer especially someone who has been so helpful in the past. You willnot be able to deny that! You have given support to many here. Please take our support as best you can while you're hurting, Ryan. I care very much.