I now take the lowest dose of my med. It evens out the lows . . . Sometimes I feel joy, and that is cool. I'm not sure that I would have been content with this when I was younger. Youth seems to be a roller-coaster ride of emotions. I like things the way they are right now.

I wonder if the type of med one is talking makes a difference? There have been some that put me to sleep and made me feel as if I was walking through clouds of cotton. But this one (can't remember if we are allowed to mention a med by name, so I won't) works pretty good most of the times.

I can understand why you feel the way you do about your med.