trevorzero...Trevor (and I am guessing your name) I hope your name does not state how you feel about yourself. If so,
you are not a Zero!!
Friends come and friends go...I know that doesn't sound like what anyone wants to hear, but it is true. Friends are hard to keep.
Friends are not always be who we think they are.
Is this true of any of the friends who have "abandoned" you:
A true friend knows your weaknesses but shows you your strengths; feels your fears but fortifies your faith; sees your anxieties but frees your spirit; recognizes your disabilities but emphasizes your possibilities. ~~ William Arthur Ward
Thinks about this!
You CAN find new friends that will care about you. I know it feels very hard to do, and I can identify completely, even if I am 60 yrs old. I have not had a good, close friend with whom I can share my deep, hard secrets in decades, at least not one I can depend upon as the quote above states.
Being a friend isn't any easier. It can be hard work too! So, choose carefully.
Consider those of us here in PsychCentral/Depression you friends, because you can count of us to listen, hear and respond back to you as you need.
We give hugs2.jpg here, even if they are virtual.