I've been in both directions from just right most of my life to 20 lbs under to 50 over back to 10 under. Thinking over was easier because there was no control involved..could just do anything I wanted....that is where control comes in...I really like being in control of things around me & when the only thing I could control was my weight....that was what I chose...couldn't blame it on meds this time...but the nausea from stress & the trauma I lived through took me to the place I needed IV nutrients & medical hospitalization for several months. I really think that there has to be a status quo place where there is no heavy or underweight....but it takes work & meds can definitely help...along with therapy...and a good GP to keep tabs on you...with threats of hospitalization if you don't take care of yourself. I think the nausea that I felt for so long & keeps coming back with the PTSD triggers...really made the weight loss permanent....like you....I hate getting sick to my stomach...that stopped me from eating because everytime I took a bite...I felt like getting sick...so I stopped eating to the point I was mal nurished & anemic.

I am hoping you can find a solution & it isn't just quit eating when you aren't hungry. The first time I lost so much weight...I was in an eating disorders center for a month with people who were OE, AN, & Bl.....it taught me alot about all the problems even though mine wasn't an issue of body image like most...just a reaction to a med. Which is something you might think about...I mean...they were trying to put me onto a med to gain weight this time.

Hope you can find some answers to help you,
Debbie