catgirl,

I want to give you a few thoughts for contemplation which is something I have just lived through the end of last year & even now.

I had gained much weight & then started losing it slowly with exercise & just being able to get out of bed once my migraines got under control. I had been down to 85 lbs about 5 years before & was struggling to even get up to 90. I had my weight down to 110 last summer when I had an asthma attack & landed in the hospital for 10 days. When I got out....I ended up having a heat stroke & nausea & dehydration was so bad....I had problems eating & the weight just dropped off....down to 104 in less than a month...my GP was somewhat worried so took some blood tests to check my nutritional level...I knew it would be ok because it usually was at that weight....I told him about my anorexia I had experienced several years ago.....& my pdoc knew about it too. I actually leveled out at that weight & was really happy there....I could wear my old cloths that looked really cool on & had enough energy to really get into my horse riding dressage training...without passing out everytime I turned around. All was going well & was stable at this weight even though everyone wanted to keep check on it. Then the trauma hit....I ended up with nausea....the stress I went through with the trauma & my Mothers death just kicked me into exhaustion & just couldn't get any food or liquid down my throat without the nausea making me so sick I couldn't stand it. I went from 104 to 98 in just a couple of days. I ended up in the medical hospital for 2 months.. with a few days out to arrange hospice care for my Mother & then my Mothers funeral. They started a PICC line with nutrition the week before her funeral...& I was hoping it would help...only problem..I was allergic to the anesthetic used to put in the PICC line & they had to pull it....the PDOC of the hospital decided I should be placed on a 72 hr hold if I didn't agree to the central line a couple of days before the funeral...I made an AMA escape with an agreement with my GP to come back after & have the central line put in then. By that time...I was down to 95....& by the end..even with the nutrition...I was down to 93. I am now up to about 96/97. I looked & still look like a walking skeleton. I must admit...I look like my Mother just before she died of the cancer. I am getting stable at this weight....but I realize that at this weight just like before....If anything happens physically or mentally to me....I will really be in trouble with my weight....when you have nothing spare to loose you can really end up in trouble with your weight & you have no reserve to go on when anything happens. It isn't smart to be at this weight & I know it.

You may be struggling to get lower...been there done that....but if something happens....you won't be struggling anymore...but you will probably blow right past any weight you might have aimed for.

Please think before you act,
Debbie