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I could have written most of your post. I SO relate to what you are saying.

The paragraph above describes my therapy so perfectly. I go twice a week, or there is no chance I would ever be able to do any work BESIDES trying to connect and know that I am safe. And we have pretty frequent between-session contact, too. I know it seems extreme to a lot of people, but it seems like the only way I can hold on to T, and who he is. Lots of weeks, I spend the Tuesday session mostly in silence, just trying to get safe, and we can't do any work until Thursday...and then there is the four day break, and then we do it all over again. It IS frustrating, for me and for T. I wish it were different.

I have the same issue with people besides T. Actually, that's one of the reason I love facebook (which I recently joined)...all of the low-key but frequent contact with people keeps them "there" for me.

I wish I knew the solution. I've been so frustrated in therapy lately because of this very thing - lots of breaks this summer has meant a HUGE step backwards in therapy for me. It feels really discouraging sometimes.

I don't have ANY words of advice or wisdom, but I just wanted you to know you are not alone....and to send you lots of