I dnt have a therapist and noone else will listen to me anymore. They are tired of me sick of my moods and want me to just buck up. I have an appt soon to see someone I dnt want to be put on stuff but I know I will but if it makes me big I won't take it I eont I can't it'll make it worse. I don't need to feel worse. I just want to end it let it be over I want it over. Thank u for all your kind word empowering words I don't knoe if I'm strong enuff right noe to take them all in