hi there and welcome i'm so sorry for what you went thru. that was wrong and unfair to do to a small child.

to answer your question...think of a child you know and care about. do you think that it would not be affected by those events? yes, it would. you were abused. you did not ask for it, and now it's come time to address it. we have no control what happens to us as children. we have control to make the best of our lives as adults, and enjoy it to the fullest.

i would like to suggest that you try to find a therapist in your areas who specializes in trauma. and just talk it over, and get it out.

again, no child asks to be abused and i'm sorry you were. you aren't making this up, nor the fact that it's now affecting you.

i so wish you the best and please let us know what you decide.

kd