(((((bananasarecool))))) I don't know how low you can get, I have been so low that I could not eat or drink - throw everything up, guts hurt so bad that I really thought there was something else wrong with me, mind going in every direction, body not wanting to move, bad thoughts of the other side and so on. But I got help, if you need to see a professional go in, keep posting here. You can get over these feelings, depression is a mean illness that wants you. You are here because you still have the fight in you. Keep fighting, learning, asking for help - this is the way to a victory over depression. Many hugs for your day.