i cant post it all right now. i just have to get it out but im just so struck by it that i cant think straight.

so yesterday i find out my fiance, that i've been with nearly 3 years, has been cheating on me for at least 2 months. we live in nc, he was in ks doing training for the military to go to iraq. he met some girl out there. he hasnt told me anything so far. i havent talked to him yet cause he's in iraq now. he's going to hear it from me next time we talk.

first thing, im through with him. its just done. i dont play the girl on the side thing. we were supposed to be married. but no. im done. i believe what he's done is unforgivable.

i have the p-words for his email account, all kinds of letters in there. i guess he really cares about this other person. apparently not enough about me to tell me what was going on.

this is all i can post right now. just starting to go blank. idk what to do anymore. i loved him. i still love him. but i cant be with someone i dont trust. its over with him.