Recently I am facing the problem of depression. Last three weeks, I have been worked hard on my research. having progress. But, this holiday, I am finding myself so depressed.

It looks like, I have lot of other stuff to do. Some of them are some job to be done for my wife (paper-works, job, companion in travel), others are getting some home stuff done (mostly cleaning, my wife do it a lot and I really should help her a bit, but I find it very hard to contribute even a little) and doing some of my own paper-works done.

I don't need any extra motivation or effort to do my research. But, I need a lot for the rest of the things I have mention above. And I feel I am lacking them.

These are causing problems, I have many of my essential works undone. My wife is becoming worried about me. Sometimes she feels unhappy to see me depressed, distressed and unhappy.

I also lost my sexual desire that I had a lot in the past. And these are causing more worries, more unhappiness.

I also do not feel meeting or talking people or socialize. I am aloof from other people. Don't have virtually any friend. Only colleague who might never want to invite me in their home. Some neighbors invite us, but mostly because of my wife and I don't like to mix with them.

I know these are not normal. But, I cannot get around these problems. The most problematic thing about socialization is that, I feel these involve artificiality and I have a belief that I am very pure and I cannot withstand artificiality.

And the problem with not getting my essential works done is that, I don't find strong motivation for them. Or, when I think about one, I start to think about others. Because there are so many things to get done. And, it feels like although these things are essential (like paper-works) for living, but these are extremely joyless and feels like labor.

So, I don't find any motivation to get them done.

I hope to hear from this community.