i know where you sit in hell. my seat is som where near the front. i have been made to feel guilty my whole life by my mother. in school a wrong answer was a disgrace. i was meant to become a famous scientist(her goal). at 19 i married a man and moved 60 miles away. i still could not get away. my husband made the most money to support us. i am not able to have children. a failure. and because of my mental illness he wanted me to leave. he divorcd me this year. i have fought my way to be able to have a life. it took me 35 years to break out of my invisible prison. from your use of english i'm guessing that being the son is an 'honor'. and you must follow your father. to get away is for you and your happiness. to stay is for your father's.