they are still loud, and very horrible to me, ive tried shouting back at them but it doesnt work they just laugh at me.

With the crisis team at the moment who advised me to take a prn (haloperidol) so i did but that was hours ago. Ive taken my night time med which is quetiapine but its only making me sleepy.

they want me to self harm, sending visions to the chip in my head making me see really horrible graphic images of me killing myself.

I hate it I hate myself, I hate putting people that care about me through this, im pathetic, worthless, dont even deserve help.